I started this blog to keep my family updated on our lives while we were away on our "adventure" in Grenada. I soon met other people with blogs and we all started following and commenting on each others posts. It didn't take long for me to start posting, not for my family, but for the comments.
It's kinda weird but I got some validation from having my friends comment on posts that contained events and pictures of things that, more often than not, included them in it. Weird, I know.
After a while the comments started slowing down and so did my posting. Then I stopped all together. I didn't think it was a big deal and I figured nobody missed my ramblings but truth be told... I miss it.
So I'm back! And although I would LOVE some ooohhing and aaahhhing (hint, hint) I'm going to try posting more often for my benefit.
Life has a way of not stopping when you want it to and slowing down when you want it to pass quickly. I find myself in a perpetual state of motion that I cannot control. In the end I'm glad that it has passed at a constant speed or else I could find myself off track. I would like to stay 25 forever but that would mean I would never see the end of a 5 year goal to complete medical school. I don't want my kids to grow up but if Dyson had never aged I wouldn't have had my other 3 beautiful children. I am grateful for the passing of time and for my memories to remember the good things that have already passed.
Over the past few weeks Jason and I have been finalizing our ranking list for residency programs and it has not been easy. We find ourselves have the same conversations over and over again. Sometimes they end the same way they did 6 times before, other times the outcome is different. There has been much thought and prayer put into it. It's exhausting. This journey has been unlike anything else we have been through. I'm grateful for it, but grateful it's almost over.
Dyson has his own room now. For the first time EVER he is on his own. He is such a good kid and has earned it. Jason and I told Dyson for a long time that being the oldest meant that you had lots of responsibility but also lost of extra fun things too. One day he told me that he didn't see what was so great about being the oldest and I agreed with him. We had been telling him it was SO great to be big but we really didn't let him do anything special. He still had to share all his toys and his room, had to go to bed at the same time but had to do extra chores and take care of the younger kids. I could see that this was not fair. So Jason and I talked about it and decided to get a mattress for a full size bed that we had and give Big D his own space. He has to take care of it himself and he gets to stay up and extra hour as long as he spends it reading in his bed. (I wasn't ready to give up my peace and quiet at 7)
Sometimes it seems impossible that he is old enough to have his own room but he acts so much older than he really is that sometimes I feel like he should be old enough to babysit for me :)
Most of the thoughts today are random and so are the pictures but I have so many pictures from the last 7 months and I want to get them on the blog.
8 comments:
I'm so glad you are posting again!!! I love to see the pictures and hear your thoughts. I know we talk often but I still love to read your blog!!!
I miss you guys! I'm glad you're posting again too do I can stalk you ;)
Great post Amanda! I love what you said about life sometimes slowing down when you least want it to... but also flying by! You have a beautiful family and are doing a wonderful job with your kids. Way to go, giving Dyson more responsibility. Can't wait to see what the future brings!
Yeah.... I keep catching myself asking my 5y.o. to do things because I'm busy or (lazy?!) and have to remind myself that he's really not old enough to shoulder that kind of responsibility. (You know, when I get tempted to get mad at him for not doing what I asked, or not doing it as well as I would do it.....)
I always read your posts. One nice thing is that even if no one comments, at the end of the year you can print your blog into a book and it is like a journal of everything that went on, that is what I do.
I am the same way. It is so much more fun to blog when you get comments... but I'll tell you, looking back over my own blog, I'm so glad that I've made the posts I have. I need to jump back on the train too, I've been a terrible blogger.
PS - I love random posts, the more random, the better. ;)
love the pictures! I can't believe how much they've grown!
So funny - I love when people comment on my blog too. Ever since we went private the comments are usually zero.
Hang in there. I know this is such a trying time with The Match. I remember it like it was yesterday but so glad we are past that point. We are here if you ever need to vent or just chat about something else to get your mind off it. We are thinking of you! :)
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