Do any of you have a hard time being inspired by others? This may sound weird but I do. Instead of being inspired by the accomplishments and ambitions of others, it seem so emphasize my own insecurities and shortcomings. Am I alone in this?
When I write it down it sounds so silly! But as I sit here and think about all the success, talents, projects, and goals of all you wonderful people I don't get inspired to start my own project or learn to do something new, instead I just feel more alone and insignificant. I wish I could feed off of others energy but instead I feel more like a failure.
I feel like a totally different person that when I got married and not in a good way.
I used to spend forever picking out the perfect outfit and heaven forbid I leave the house without makeup on. Now I'm lucky if I've showered in the last 3 days. It makes for a funny joke but the reality is that I'm dieing.
This post could go on and on but I'll spare you all from my emotional roller coaster, heaven knows I'd get off myself if I knew how.
